an empty glass.

i feel like an empty glass. sitting on the side of the sink. being forgotten about and needs to be washed. but because its forgotten about its just sitting there collecting dust and molding.

i feel so empty inside. i feel like a burden on people. i feel that if i say something or want to hang out with them that if they do its just to be nice. i feel that if i'm quite and just dont say anything that i'm not a bother. that people wont mind me sitting there just so i dont look how i feel. but deep inside i feel alone. i almost feel like i should just sit in a corner and be alone. because then i wouldnt bother anyone.

i'm also losing people. my best friend is about to graduate high school. i'm so excited for her. but yet on the inside i'm broken. i feel like i'm gunna be forgotten about and that shes gunna start this whole new life without me. that shes not gunna need me anymore. because signs of that are starting to show. i'm being left out of things. not told things that everyone else knows. i just feel like i'm not wanted or needed anymore. like i'm that empty glass, that i was drunk out of and then just set down and forgotten about. i was used for what i'm good for and then just put down and left.

i feel depressed. softballs over and i have nothing to do with my afternoons. i never see anybody anymore. it feels like the rest of me is missing. i feel incomplete.

i've lost touch with everyone that i used to talk to and hang out with. but i dont know how to fix it. i just feel like that empty forgotten about glass...