a look into the crystal ball...

the future. its probably the scariest thing i think about. because i have no clue what each day brings. more recently i've been thinking about college. the 7 letter word the average high school junior thinks about. taking the SAT, deciding what you want to major in, where you want to go to school, keeping your grades up. the stress of the average junior. but more recently softball has been playing a huge role of planning for my future. but sometimes i'm just in confusion. i know what i want to do with my life. i want to do graphic design but the factor of where and do i want to play softball play a huge factor. and the factor of if a school offers me to play what am i going to do. i have been talking alot to people about college. i talked to my aunt about a design school up in ohio. and it provides a great opportunity. but if i went there i would be giving up 5 years of my life. having no summer. but when i graduate i would have 2 years of job experience under my belt. i could also attend schools closer to where i live, college of charleston has a strong department in graphic design and so does anderson, which both schools have a softball team. two in one :) but. the stress of it all is really starting to sink in.

but the one thing i continiously take comfort in is that my God has a plan for it all and knows what is going to happen in my life. and last night that was really shown to me. as i am dealing with the stress of the scout comming this week. i really felt like it was ok to ask for prayer. and so i did. and i'm so thankful that i did. i have been truly bathed in it. and its showing. i have been less stressed and just feel ready for this lady comming. and even more a couple friends of mine sent me texts saying the most encouraging things. saying that God has blessed me with this talent and that i can do this and will do it, i also recieved a text from a friend talking about God's peace. and he had no clue what has been going on, and i texted him back and told him how he knew i needed it and all he simply sent back was God did. and right after i read it i fell stright to sleep. i have just felt so much more at peace through this situation after asking for prayer. i look forward to being watched on friday to see where my life will go the paths i will take and the choices i will make. im excited for it.